Have you ever had that feeling of meh? That feeling of uncomfortableness (is that a word!)? That feeling of eeeekk? Those moments where you want to do something. Those moments where something isn’t clicking, but you feel held back… Maybe you know what you want to do. Maybe you have an idea. Maybe you have no idea but I guarantee just from my own experiences that when you don’t feel good in your own space (body/health/mind etc), decisions are clouded.
❤ Who’s frozen before?
❤ Who’s had all the intentions, but that’s how they stay?
❤ Who’s found it easier to blame others/circumstances?
It happens … “my cats ill, I’ll do it tomorrow!”, “I can’t today, it’s Wednesday”, “I’ll do it tomorrow” … but how long can you freeze for? How long can you stay in a place that isn’t fulfilling? We all know what happens-sadness, frustration, anger, resentment. Why?
I’ll give you my personal (short) view … when I’m unfulfilled it comes from a place within. That place within causes me to go off track. My nutrition suffers. I feel lethargic. I set myself deadlines under pressure. I miss my own deadlines. I feel pants. when I feel pants, “I DON’T SHOW UP”. I don’t show up. I feel unfulfilled … and so it starts again.
When I’m happy in my body (no I don’t mean being a size six instagram model!). When I’m happy with my health. When I feel energised. When I feel in control, I feel excited. When I’m excited, I sparkle. When I sparkle I show up and I’m unstoppable!
Let’s add a dash of practical reality … Does the picture tell the full story? No of course it doesn’t! See some of the pictures I think ‘fair play Laura, you worked hard for that’ and others, I see past the skinnier body, I see the dull skin, the tired eyes. I remember the stress I was under, the hours of cardio to escape, the fact I was running on empty. It wasn’t sustainable, it wasn’t healthy, I wasn’t living.
Here’s the honesty moment, as I write this, I’m getting a little emotional as I’ve never written or openly talked about this before. I’ve never shared the pain. I’ve never shared the full driving force that got me to that place… maybe I will, one day, maybe not, but today this is about a chink into the armour, a moment of personal acceptance, realisation, sharing with the hope of helping or inspriring others, so here goes …
Regardless of your personal or professional circumstances, we all feel stress, all feel overwhelmed, all feel unworthy at times. The pressure to be a success, to look a certain way, to be the best mum/friend/partner/employee, it’s enough to send us over the edge isn’t it?
We heap the pressure on, we’re surrounded by media, images, comparisons, things to help you get just that little bit better, it’s never ending. Those pictures of the past, I’m proud, but I see a shell of me. I don’t remember why I was doing it, I was on autopilot, I didn’t enjoy the process, I over critiqued.
That doesn’t have to be the story, the way it is; you decide. Mine wasn’t an epiphany; the sky didn’t part and I wasn’t bathed in violet light. It was more of a seesaw, a slow burn, highs and lows, tears and WTH moments. I want to take that pain and struggle away and give you the tools to stand tall, proud as the best, confident version of you and it all starts with a choice, a decision about what you actually want.
Get yourself a little alone time, and ask yourself:
- Who do you want to inspire?
- What do you want to be known for?
- How do you want to feel?
- Where do you want to spend your time?
- Why do you do what you do?
There may be tears, the mask may fall and that’s ok. It may be painful. Roll with it. To share with you what’s waiting; acceptance, happiness, passion for your passions, fun, friendship, pride, gained time, and that’s just a few. So yes, it’s worth it.
Here’s the hopeful inspiration and a glimpse of flashforward … I’m on a journey. Over the last 10 weeks, I’ve found something that’s fun and workable. Do I deny myself? Nope! Have I committed? Am I enjoying it? Hell yes! Now that’s the thing I want you to take away; ‘FIND SOMETHING YOU ENJOY!’. I promise you, when you do it’s not a chore, there’s no stress and you’ll love the process.
So what have I done? I’ve mixed it up! I’ve danced, I’ve stretched, I’ve challenged my body with some of the hardest workouts I’ve ever done. I’ve enjoyed food (wine & chocolate!), I’ve stayed away from the scales and not only is my body changing (for the good), but my mind, my thinking is also changing. I’m no longer doing this journey alone, I’m surrounded by a tribe of women (and men) who are on their journeys too. We all have different reasons, different visions, but we support, we cheerlead and we’re loving the process.
If in sharing this I help just one person to drop the facade, change thier thinking, step forward and say YES to moving forward and achiving that body and mind transformation in a way that’s unique to them, then I’ve served my purpose.
Stop suffering alone, it’s not fun, it’s not sustainable and it’s not necessary. How can I help you? Message me Laura@Jobes.org and let’s talk.